Just a little introspection today... I often struggle with self esteem and don't feel good enough, worthy, etc. Today I was reading in 1 Corinthians and I felt a kinship with Paul as he said:
1 Corinthians 2:3
I came to you in weakness-timid and trembling.
New Living Translation
I know that feeling of timidity. Trembling is normal too. I kinda do tend to shake when I'm nervous. That said a few verses earlier Paul had pointed out something about who God uses.
1 Corinthians 1:26-29
Remember, dear brothers and sisters, that few of you were wise in the world's eyes or powerful or wealthy when God called you. Instead, God chose things the world considers foolish in order to shame those who think they are wise. And he chose things that are powerless to shame those who are powerful. God chose things despised by the world, things counted as nothing at all, and used them to bring to nothing what the world considers important. As a result, no one can ever boast in the presence of God.
New Living Translation
I read that and realized that maybe that timidity wasn't a bad thing. Maybe it's good that I'm not "important" or "pretty and popular" maybe, just maybe, if I stay "insignificant to the world around me, then God can use me for great things in His kingdom. I pray He will because His kingdom is the one that lasts! I can do nothing without Him so why not give what I can back to Him? Anything else would be silly. To God be the glory!
